Whatever Comes to Mind

You know, I never really felt like I missed out socially in life. Sure, I've never had the most trustworthy of friends or stable schooling life. I never had a boyfriend until the beginning of this year. That went so well. *sigh* I epically fail at life.

I don't know where I'm supposed to meet guys. "Hi, welcome to McDonalds. What can I get for you? By the way, you're hot.." Yeah, I don't think so. Whoever said Australian boys are hot was lying coz they are no different from any other boys. Me, I prefer guys with accents to be honest. Azkatraz... mmm it's gonna be awesome. Nick Myers, anyone?

But in all seriousness, now I've left school I feel like my life is not on the path it's supposed to be on. Your life is pretty much all mapped out for you. Go to school. Go to uni. Get a job. Find love. Get married. Have kids. But now it feels like my life has gone from school to work at McDonalds, go to Harry Potter conventions, do Year 12 at TAFE, save like a spaz to go to college in America... *unknown*

Unknown is scary. I don't like not knowing where my life is going, not knowing if I'll be able to do what I want to do, not knowing where I'll end up. The unknown is daunting and I don't like it. Right now my life is like I'm on one of those little running things that guinea pigs have and there is no way off!

Do you have things you want to do in life, just to know what it feels like, to experience it? I want to faint, just to know what it's like. I want to go to America because the country fascinates me. I want to inspire people with my words. But most importantly, I want to fall in love, to have that unexplainable, indescribable feeling. When I do eventually fall in love I'm going to have a notebook with me 24/7 because I think then, and only then will I be inspired to write some beautiful things.

I think that's all I have to say here for now.

Word to your bookshelf,

Kassi

Days I've Worked Full Time: 49
Books I've Read in 2009: 43
Days Till I Leave for Azkatraz: 54
Days Till I Meet John Green: 6

LOL Moment of the Day:

sorry - I started reading Midnight Sun after you left. SO HOOKED.
[9:19:49 PM] Kassi says: ew
[9:19:52 PM] Kassi says: so i had a brilliant idea
[9:20:00 PM] Nat Speechley says: sooo much better than Twilight.
[9:20:02 PM] Kassi says: even more brilliant than our mocking-twilight fanfiction
[9:20:11 PM] Nat Speechley says: Ahaha
[9:20:25 PM] Nat Speechley says: WELL. It's wayy better than the whingy emo Bella.
[9:20:35 PM] Kassi says: that's not emo. we can write emo
[9:20:59 PM] Kassi says: "Oh em gee. Edward was like, totally flirting with Jessica today. I'm am like, so totally depressed now!"